SPOTTING for me means STOPPING

Tuesday afternoon, after office, I went directly to grocery, to buy some food items, wala na kasi kami stock.

Joseph, is trying to STOP me, and asked me to wait for him to come home, so he will do it for me.

I insist, kasi sobrang gutom na ako, at alam kong wala pa nakaprepared na food pag-uwi ko.

I started taking vegetables and put it in my basket, sabi ko, konti lang, kasi di ako dapat magbuhat ng mabigat, pero as I walk around the supermarket, unti unti nang dumami ung pinamili ko, sabi ko to save time na pabalik balik sa binibili namin.

It ended, that I am carrying 3 plastic bags, mabigat na siya. I didnt STOP, its my fault.

When I got home, I cook tortang talong with minced pork, napagod din ako sa kakaluto, when Joseph arrived almost ready na lahat. Again, I didnt STOP, and REST for a while galing pa naman ako sa paglakad ng malayo.

Then evening time, I go to the TOILET, and I was shocked at namutla talaga ako, when i found SPOTs on my undies. Sort of 2-3 drops. Tulad ng pagpatapos ng yung dalaw, at may pahabol, parang ganon.

I call husband, and inform him, ayun, pati siya nagulat, at sinasabihan ako sa kakulitan ko.

Bigla akong napahiga sa bed namin, and started worrying.... I know this is not normal...

What we did, nagtanong tanong agad kami, kung kani-kanino, I even, contact my OB, but unfortunately she's not answering the call, and when I call the clinic, they told me to call the next morning.

Joseph asked me to stay calm, relax and take a rest. Pareho namin kinakausap si Baby. Lalo si Joseph, lagi niya sinasabi, "Baby, relax ka lang jan ha?, baby, love na love ka namin ng Mommy, kaya kapit ka lang diyan ha?"

So after having our dinner, I went to bed and sleep, buti dinalaw agad ako ng antok.

The next morning, napansin ko, me SPOTs ulit, like 2drops, pero mukhang may katagalan na, maybe nung gabi pa yun.

So, Joseph asked me not to come to work and just rest. Now, i don't have choice, my assistant is flying for his vacation, and since kami lang dalawa sa accounts department, di pwedeng walang tao.

So I just told Joseph, I just report to the office, hintayin ako sa bahay, at pag nakapagpaalam na ako, sabay kami punta sa clinic.

When I arrived sa office, I went to the restroom to check, whether meron pa din o wala, ganon pa din, meron na naman 2-3 SPOTs, kaya, Ate Marie, immediately, send me to the nearest Hospital.

Rest is history.

Mas nakskastress ang Doctora na tumingin sa akin, kesa sa nararamdaman ko, hirap, she cannot explain well, i keep on asking, why there is spotting, she keep on telling me the BABY is OK, the BABY is NORMAL.... but never answered my question.

I had TVS (ultrasound) for the second time, and I saw baby's heartbeat this time, don, lumakas na ang loob ko, at nabuhayan ako ng sigla. I know baby is ok.

Last thing before I left, he told me to take a rest, and wala munang ulampuyaw kami ni mister. Wala naman tlaga, from the time na nalaman namin am pregnant, for the sake of our baby, zero talaga kami.

So, I guess I need to do some STOPPING, to avoid SPOTTING!

STOP- walking ng malayong distance

STOP- caryying heavy objects

STOP- worrying

STOP- crying

STOP- extra curricular activities

STOP- being hard headed, and listen to what people concerned to me will advise

Now, I am starting to experience the LIFE of BEING A MOM.

Baby just hold on.... We love you more than words can say, forgive me for all the wrong I've done. I love you! We love you!